that's it! I've HAD IT!

I have decided that I'm going to have to be a mean mom to get these kids to listen to me...and it STILL doesn't work! :(

Dawson (5+) is telling me how he wishes he had something to do (I hear this EVERYDAY!) So this week my dad has a week of vacation time. He offered to come and0 pick up Dawson for a sleepover. I had a GREAT afternoon giving Ally some MUCH needed 1 on 1 time. Then Steve and I ate supper, I tidied up and went out for a bit... while I'm out my phone rings, {no big deal as I figured Steve just wondered where I was and possibly wanted me to pick up something. NO.... it was Steve, but he was calling to tell me that Dawson was on his way home. I seriously don't know WHAT is into this kid. We are butting heads a LOT lately and I swear he is doing to me on purpose :( he makes me feel like an awful mother ~even told me he hated me the other day. How sad to hear your 5 year old scream that at you. :sigh:
Oh, and yesterday he decided to start a piece of paper on fire in our living room -boy did THAT freak him out!

I feel so blessed and at the same time I'm just SO tired, that I don't know what to make of things. I just keep turning to God. {think there's a limit to his answers?} ;)