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Saturday, April 28, 2007

maybe not tonight

I was thinking that I should blog, but I'm just WAY too tired, so maybe tomorrow....

been Tagged AGAIN!

not only once, but twice! -Eek!!

first the 7 things thing again! ~for you Francine~ :)

*I have a cut on my lip that is driving me batty b/c it won't heal, and of course I am compelled to pick at it!

*I FINALLY started packing stuff up in this room today -you can barely tell that I've even started!

*I am REEEEEEEEEEALLY anxious about moving, but more so to tear up and redecorate our new place :D

*My throat has been hurting for days now.. and it gets worse at night time. It feels like somebody punched me.

*I really am hoping to get back into dog obedience with Heidi -level 2

*I prefer to have cream for my coffee and will choose a different drink if cream isn't available.

*I'm really tired right now

Friday, April 27, 2007

New Concept~

Mmmkay, I'm refusing to admit that I am slowly becoming addicted to the Facebook craze! Last night I had this ~hairbrain~ idea to look up some of my elementry comrades and low and behold I found a few that *gulp* remember me! {not sure that it's a good thing or not} I had a VERY trying time in my youngers years. My mom was married to a JERK that had 2 sons from a previous entangle, and then between them they had my 1/2 sister. In that time period having a brady bunch family was NOT cool. I struggled with my identity and ended up not really feeling like I belonged. My mom was totally stoked on keeping the JERK happy and would do all she could to please him -including accepting abuse. It should have been obvious, but I guess it was something to keep hidden at that time. There were WAY too many times that I would NOT want to return after being with my dad for weekends, and that should have also been a wake up call... but it wasn't. As time dwindled, and I became a preteen and definitely missed out on the motherly nurturing that I desparately needed. I felt like I had to hide my changing self and I became VERY withdrawn in school -I went from an A/B student to a C/D/Inc. student. I would spend a lot of time outside or in my room. It's a good thing that I was able to "escape" on weekends to my dad's, where I didn't feel judged, I didn't feel like I had to wonder or worry about being yelled/sworn at or wacked upside the head. There were a lot of things that could have sent my life down a really shit road. Somehow, by the grace of God, we moved! It couldn't have been any more perfect timing. I left all the people that I had grown up with but had fallen out of friendships with. I felt like I was given a new chance. We moved out of the city and that summer I went on a vacation to PEI with my dad via motorcycle. We were in an accident -head on collision with a car- and again it was God's will that saved us.

Why on earth am I bringing this all about? well, I guess thinking of all the shitty things that happened in my life up to age 12, I just wanted to get it out. Thinking about how I can now look at pics and chat with some of the people I use to go to school with, it's pretty cool how my life turned out.

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

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Can you believe *I* am at a loss for words??? I have tons to gab about and with the head cold that I'm battling you'd think that typing it {rather than saying it} would make this all the more easy. It doesn't! I just about ~freaked~ ok, I pretty well *DID* freak last night. Steve decided that the house we've pretty well just about complete purchasing needs repair. And more than just a few dollars worth. ~GREAT!!!!~ I have been sleeping like ABSOLUTE CRAP lately -thanks kids!!-
I decided that I was taking them and we were going to go shopping and have a ROCKIN' awesome day. And we did! :) until we got home. Then it just felt like the walls were closing in on me and I couldn't stop anything. I was definitely having a CRAP evening -whatever- So let's see, the house: there is a problem with the water pressure and with the 'connections' that Steve has at work, he was able to find out that it's definitely from the main line TO the house -grrreat! so that's a pile of digging and replacing. The other thing is electrical -something I don't understand- so let's just leave it at that :P Here's a mini breakdown of the deal: they have the house listed for $197,9k we offer low so that we have room for movement $185k they came down $3k we went up $3k then they decided to take our offer. So after doing the financial bit {already knowing what we were "good" for} Steve did the inspection stuff and determined what the repairs were going to roughly cost us and then put in a "counteroffer" for $180k, surprisingly they came down another $2k and said that was as low (actually lower) than they had planned to sell for. Steve has been obviously stressed about the decision he has to make, as I finally told him I had "HAD IT!" and if I had to look at another 40 houses to find ONE that will suite us I'd positively die. Not to mention the fact that we have until the end of May to be out of this place and will be 'bunking' with family until the June 15 closing date. :::sigh:::

I'm just DONE! Done, DONE, done! I don't think I can take anymore of this house CRAP! it sucks! and now, b/c he has had these apprehensions he isn't as "giddy" and "happy" about the moving thing. It might not be obvious to others, but *I* can tell. Of course I still see the potential of it all -and he sees all the work that spells out $$$

k, well, enough of that! I'm going to veg ~

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

a day to b*tch!

I am tired, I have a head cold that is driving me batty, I'm short tempered, and I just can't seem to get the upper hand around here!

Steve has just dumped another load of crap on me to feel more up in arms about the house stuff. I seriously need to either vent out my entire feelings somewhere or I'm going to BURST! ~ok, rant over... for NOW!

Monday, April 23, 2007

just about done!

Steve and I are 1 step closer to being home "owners" ...you know it just occured to me that I don't know why they call you a home "owner" when technically you are just simply living in a house that you will own ~someday~ unless you are rich enough to just BUY your house.. and to those of you that can do that, good for you!

I guess we can pretty much get packing. Our date is a bit further than we'd hoped, and it's June 15th. So we'll likely be bunking with the inlaws for a couple weeks... {that's where my scrappin' supplies are currently residing}

I'm dog tired... and am almost too chicken to attempt to go to bed, as sure as shootin' the darn kids will have me awake just as my head hits the pillow :| grr...

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

it's Official

...I'm weird!

I was just upstairs nursing and rocking Ally when it came to me. Why do people buy seeds to grow fruits & vegetables? -if you ever look at the multitudes of variety of tomato seeds that are available and you have NO idea what makes one any better than another, here's a thought -go to the market (or grocery store) and buy actual tomato's. If you like them, save some of the seeds and grow your own! I know this isn't possible for everything, but definitely peppers, tomato, cucumbers, zucchini ... even potato's that have started to sprout you can put in the garden and they will multiply -imagine that!

Ok, so now that I have *THAT* off my mind... I should be packing. But I'm tired and all I want to do is sleep. Dawson didn't go to school today -he was tired and has a bit of a cold- I just couldn't be bothered to argue with him.

We still haven't heard any more about our closing date and you know it just occured to me our phone hasn't rang much today ...if at all?!

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

SO much to do!

and I'm bored! :P

ooh a CREATIVE day?

my horoscope: Your creativity will improve your communication abilities today, so let loose and try not to censor yourself. Use your imagination in correspondence, emails and text messages. Workaday words can adequately express an idea, but to really capture someone's attention, you need to add your artistic flair. Don't assume that a professional environment can't tolerate a colorful splash of personality -- in fact, it might just add welcome a bit of color.

Interesting! I got an inquiry for a custom set of Hero bears! Eeeek! wonder if I can meet their expectations ;)

I have loads of stuff to do and oddly enough I actually have desire to attempt to find the energy it might take to actually do some of it!?! but we'll see... both kiddo's are playing together ever so nicely (I'm almost waiting for the axe to drop ya know?) ~Actually that's not true, I relized about a week or so ago that my life was really started to become a FRAZZLED mess. My priorities were NOT in order. I took about a 1/2 a second to determine that if I wanted things to be right, I needed to put HIM first, ever since I did that everything has been falling right into place! ~such a blessing! :D

I forgot to mention that after "ignoring" the facebook phenomenon I have finally broke down and joined... I totally cracked up at this video.

Monday, April 16, 2007

I have GREAT news!!!

I'm pretty sure that it's safe to say...


Sunday, April 15, 2007

1 step closer!!

Mmmkay, well... we got a counter offer! :D it's official we are *IN* the game! LOL

I'll am hoping that I'll have even MORE news {VERY} soon!

Saturday, April 14, 2007

thanks a lot ANN! :P

Now I can't stop laughing....

after googling -"Jennifer needs" here are a few {enjoy your laugh, I did!} the ones that are in green are too close to true!

~Jennifer needs a cold shower
~Jennifer needs a smack daddy
~Jennifer needs heavy visual depiction of her subject
~Jennifer Needs Help!
~Jennifer works at a strip club in Nevada.
~Jennifer needs to own up and apologize to Simon.
~Jennifer needs to soar in some way (either literally, intellectually, or spiritually)
~Jennifer needs your help again.
~Jennifer needs a pot of coffee
~Jennifer needs to get a life
~Jennifer needs to spend that money on new shoes
~Jennifer needs to get laid stop bitching!
~Jennifer needs to fire her manager.

I've been tagged!

Each player starts with 7 random facts/habits about themselves. People who are tagged need to write their own blog about their seven things, as well as these rules. At the end of your blog, you need to choose 7 people to get tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave them a comment telling them that they have been tagged and to read your blog! OK, here goes:

1. I am *sick* of house hunting. -we have an offer going in today {PLEASE wish us luck!}

2. I am a self taught teddy bear artist -even dragged Tina into the hobby ;)

3. I have issues with concentrating. -I can't!

4. I love german shepherd's {Heidi graduated obed. level 1 this week}

5. I'm a bird watcher.

6. I'm married to my highschool sweetie -we've been together for 13+ years!

7. I hope to eventually go back to school... for massage therapy.

I am tagging: Shannon, Ann, Tammy, Denise, Daiva, Marci, Lizette!

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

I took a breaK!

...not much of a break as I was continuously interupted... however I took a house hunting break and did some creating :)
this is what I made ...
What it is you ask? it's called an "explosion" box... when you remove the lid, it falls open
Then after you open it right up it's a scrapbook page.

April snow-showers

It occured to me the other day, that it's APRIL... and it's snowing. My grandparents use to have a Florida home and it would never fail that EVERY April that they would return to Ontario -it would snow! So this must be the time they'd be coming home. {I miss them!}

Our kids have NOT be nice to us lately. They haven't been sleeping very well. Ally waking multiple times during the night STILL! and trust me we've tried everything we can think of.... Dawson was up still at 1am last night proclaiming he wasn't tired.. YA RIGHT! Today he was totally tired but had school and since it's the only day this week he goes, he was GOING! :P

I have so much stuff to do... and all I can think of is wanting to SLEEP ~going to jack up on some more java. I need STARBUCKS! :D There's only 1 that I know of in the city other than the 1 in Chapters... {sad huh?}

Monday, April 09, 2007

altered skateboard!


this is FREAKin' halarious!

Sunday, April 08, 2007

happy Easter -and all that jazz

I got this from a friend and just couldn't WAIT to share it with you today! :)

So anyway -We have been SO honkin' exhausted from house hunting I think it's been aroudn the 20 or more mark in a week! Needless to say I was not prepared at all this year to have a ~fun~ Easter. We spent less than $10 on chocolate/candy, and as it turned out the *boy* was thrilled, I was glad. The *girl* didn't even know what the heck was going on, so hopefully next year will be more exciting for her. We had supper with my mom on Good Friday -all we wanted to do this weekend was flop! Yesterday Steve got caught up on sleep and has been trying to work at the finishing up the accounting stuff for the church as he has passed the job over to another member. We are going to his parents today for supper, again wishing we could just FLOP! I'm completely exhausted -I'm definitely going to bed early tonight. Tomorrow we're hoping to get back at the house hunting. Seems almost weird to have a 3 day break from it.

I STOLE time today to create a scrapbook thingy -called an "explosion" box. It's a box made up from a sheet of paper (that is decorated) and then is scored and folded up so that you can then put a lid on and it keeps it closed. It's pretty cool, I only wish I could have had a few better pictures to use with it. I'll have to make another one with different pictures :) I'll post pictures of it after I get them loaded onto the computer -camera battery needs to be charged.

Thursday, April 05, 2007


2 more bite the dust! sigh....

I think we are going to have 3 days off *in a row* from house hunting- I need the break! :(

I'm actually not full out depressed that definitely isn't the right word for how I'm feeling. I am feeling let down -and if "the right place is going to come along" the sooner the better please! :)

man... this is SO not fun! :P

today we only saw 2 and drove by 3 on top of those 2. So recap of the 5 places:

1. the foundation was TERRIBLE <-steve's word.
2. we're nearly certain it was a "pot-house" or something... all that was there was the shell -this was a drive by
3. another drive by -we're VERY interested in seeing the inside
4. too ??? crooked? and something about support beam being shimmed?
5. another drive by... I want to see it, Steve seemed skeptical.

I have ~ANOTHER~ headache.

house hunting....SUCKS!

~and that's about all I've got to say about THAT!

ugh, 8 houses this evening and 1 stunk SO bad I just walked right back out the door! there were 2 gerbilly things in a cage in the kitchen that STUNK! a momma cat that had a litter of kittens in a half box on newspaper and an old dog that we weren't sure that was alive or not when we first arrived! :| there was blood, feces and urine on the floor and it was just GROSS! sad actually -can't believe people LIVE there! :| {GAG}

a lot fo the places were just old. smelled old. outdated. wahhhh... I can handle outdated paint/carpet etc. but windows as old as the house?! eek! CHAching!$!

Another place that was on an eerie street -called a court- the houses were packed in like sardines! and once we entered the house, it just felt -creepy- felt like there was domestic violence or something funky going on. WAY overpriced for the amount of work it needs (imo!)

sigh... there was more but I'm whooped!
and we drove home in a SNOW storm! :|
April is insane!

Monday, April 02, 2007


SO much is happening around here!!! ***disclaimer: if I seem to have gone "missing" around here, don't worry, I'll be back, however, my sanity {whatever THAT is, may just be gone for good!}

Anyway, so Saturday evening we went and saw 6 houses. ONE of those SIX houses was bid-able on! {eek!} and so after signing on with a real estate agent we put an offer together and submitting it today. Unfortunately it was not accepted and the seller took 1 of the other offers. As there were 3 of us bidding.

So back to the hunting...

Whoever says house hunting is fun, I'd like to personally insert *MY* foot where sun does not shine! ;)

happy monday! :D