and the other segment

so today I got the vacuuming done and it looks AWESOME! :D

first I got Dawson to school (on time WAHOO!), then Steve dropped Ally and I off at MOPS and it was AWESOME! (thanks again Marci!!) we had a GREAT time!
I even had an 'a ha, it's GOT to be a sign' moment --hey kimbo remember "it's a sign!" ;)

well there was an SU demo that is one of the leaders and she apparently moving on from MOPS... we got to talking. Anyway I'm thinking that I'm not DONE thinking about it yet! ;)

what else... made supper, got groceries, Ally was a dear and helped me put them away. Then I got the kids to bed :)

good day and tomorrow will be even better! :D

I'm it... are you? :D

10 years ago I was:
well, there were parts of 1998 that I'd rather forget but it was also the start of a new part of my life. Steve and I got engaged that year.


5 things on my to do list for today: *it's nearly bed time how bout tomorrow*
1.) bake with the kids
2.) help them make birthday pressies for mil
3.) make something yummy for our lunch guests
4.) sign up for SU?! ;)
5.) get Dawson's soccer reg. form dropped off

4 things I would do if I became a billionaire:
1.) give a LOT of it away - money is the root of ALL E-ville! :P
2.) but first I'd but a bunch of crap! -new cars, fix our house up buy a cottage
3.) drag my bestest friend evah up here kicking and screaming -b/c she's in Cali and it's freakiN' COLD here!!! :D
4.) make sure all family and close friends were comfortable in life

3 bad habits:
1.) I'm undecisive
2.) pepsi-aholic!
3.) i'm hopelessly addicted to the computer and paper crafts :)

5 jobs I have had:
1.) baker
2.) telemarketer {bleh!}
3.) grocery store bakery counter clerk
4.) MOM
5.) head chef and bottle washer ;)

6 Things most people don’t know about me:
1.) I have a tape/sticker fettish -actually that's not really a 'secret'
2.) I was in karate from 7 yrs. to 14yrs old
3.) I always wanted to train dogs as aids for people that needed them
4.) I want to go to school to BE something -just not sure what?
5.) I am 'fearful' of the ocean -due to a jelly fish sting when I was 5
6.) I LOVE step dancing -wish I could do it! :D

I'm tagging Ann, Marci, and Laurie.
If you get tagged copy and paste this to your own blog, and put in your answers, and then tag 3 other people.

so I was thinking.... uh oh! ;)

with all the "house duties" that I supposedly am 'expected' to do I'm going to keep a list :)
why not better than to share here -where I might actually keep track of it! :P

today - did 3 loads of wash (including bedding), and shovelled the STUPID sidewalk & driveway AgAIN! -grrr.. I'm so sick of snow! Loaded and unloaded the dishwasher, made supper, took the kids to my mom's for lunch. Gathered up the trash and put it out to the street.

you know all this sounds mundane, but I just want to SEE what all I do. :)

Steve bbq'd our burgers and put 1 load of wash into the dryer. then he brewed a new batch of beer and put the kids to bed... b/c *I* went out for tea with my cousin! :D

keeping up! :)

so far so good - Ya, I know it's only wednesday... ;)

-I shovelled yesterday *STOOPID SNOW!* even got carried away and shovelled the neighbours walk.

Marci - I looked into MOPS and wouldn't ya know... the church right down our street hosts the program!!! I called and have to call back again later they meet alternating Thurs. but I'm not sure yet if it's this or next (thanks for reminding me about this program!)

Tammy -you are likely 110% right about not really being "ready" to go off the meds... and especially not this time of year, it's depressing as it is! but it's done and I am NOT doing THAT again! ;) I'll be alright, I just need to keep focused!

oops! I hit publish post before I was done ~duh!

So what else - hmm, I had a nice hot bath with the whole family pretty well last night -silly kids!

the dad actually put them to bed!!! (1 pt) Then i was ready for bed too -but decided to stay up a while longer since it *was* only 8pm. I should have just went to bed, since Ally woke around midnight -as ususal :P then Dawson was up at 4am then Ally again at 5am - it's a real party around here ALL NIGHT LONG! :D <-- that is a very cheesey almost crazy smile ;)

Anyway, today is going good so far, Steve made coffee (1/2 pt) I haven't been enjoying coffee lately weird - scary actually :P but today I've had 2 & 1/2 cups and I'm doing GREAT! :D I even have already been out and shovelled (again!)

So today - we're waiting for Steve to come back home b/c the kids and I are going to go visit with my mom for the afternoon :) And this evening we're planning to take them skating with one of my cousins and her dh and dd. I need to charge up the battery -as my kids have never been skating.

I'm feeling GOOD today!

getting on with it

well I'm ready to spill.. ya, MORE! :P

So as my *loyal* readers know I am now free from taking anti-depressants and wow! what a challenge that was (to get off it I mean) So far nearly everyday I cry. Not for any real reason, and a lot of the times it's when I pause to be reminded of how lucky I am. Sure I have my upsets and you know it's just bound to happen ~ I am human.

I have decided to try and give more of my time to the things I've been putting off and it's just time to take the bull by the horns!

I need to find a group of other moms that are Christians and get myself ON TRACK! As soon as the temperature warms up I also plan to get out running! It just hurts like heck to breathe out there lately :(

I'm thinking of going through my scrappin' stuff and seeing if there isn't a LOT that I really and truly don't need/use/want. Once I figure this out I'll post what I have to offer here before listing it on ebay :)

thanks everyone for your encouraging words and messages...

thank you :)

just want to say thanks for the hugs and suggestions. you have no idea how much I appreciate reading that I am in fact "normal" to think that I deserve me time.

ok, I'll spill...

I know that I have baffled at LEAST 2 of my loyal blog readers ;) LOL

I have 2 children - not including my husband... or dog or parrot. Well, they are rather, uhm... demanding! and to be frank annoy the CRAP out of me. It doesn't help that my husband drinks beer.

just for an example I have have been trying to write this for the past - 10 minutes. I have been interrupted 3 times by my kids b/c they think they OWN me and my life. WHAT THE HECK!?

I just get to the point of complete anger and rage especially more so when the husband is sitting and watching tv. I feel like I have absolutely ZERO time for ME! have I mentioned that I don't even get to go "potty" without somebody having a meltdown?? I mean COME ON people, *I* too am human. I too deserve a FREAKING BREAK... no?

anyway, so ya Saturday night was a little problem for me... *I* wanted time to myself - ya imagine that eh? well... let's just say Ally was having a melt down and I tried and tried to just wait it out to see how long it would take before the daddy would step up. He never did... and we ended up in a heated arguement that lead to him taking action towards throwing out all my scrapping supplies and then to me not wanting to EVER scrap again. I was ready to start listing it all for sale.

I still feel aloof about it but I guess I'll keep it for now. I just need to reprioritze my schedule around here. Apparently the children and husband come first - and then me. Sad huh? sad... I guess it's true tho' to a certain extent. One day I will look back and "miss" these days apparently. so in a nutshell I may or may not be keeping up with scrappin' *at least on the weekends ;)

whew! close call...

We had a really stressful Saturday night here, thanks be to GOD that all has been reconciled.

Let's just say that there is a big black garbage bag sitting in my scraparea that just about got filled -by dh. LONG story that I'm not going into. I just need to reprioritize a bit and put more of my family/housewife duties before myself... makes sense right? {yah, I'm rolling my eyes too!} come on MAY 8th!!!! :P

so anyway, wanna see the 2 layouts I did? and I "altered" a naked magazine holder too :)

scrappage

I've been "off the horse" for too long! I'm taking part in some scrappage this weekend :D

there's crop going on at Scrapbook Takeout, as well as a preview party as SplitCoastStampers for VSBN -which is next weekend! ;) and I think there is something else that I'm forgetting too...
OH! {blush} it's also a LONG Bella Weekend!!! tons of new goodness being unveiled! :D

not doing it -for now-

At this point in time I'm just not feeling ready to tackle anything let alone have to "prove" myself to anyone.

the stupid dog scratched my eye today - kinda hurts.

I'm tired.

he confuses me so bad it makes me sad

hey ya so ...I don't know WHAT to say. I'm pretty well at a loss for words - dh is "talking" with me about SU! only problem he just doesn't have anything logical to say?! seems like he's talking in circles... but going no where. I think I'd feel a lot better with hearing him say look, I don't think it's a good thing because ... and offer me a GOOD reason. So far I've heard, it's not a good time b/c of the cost, (not true - it's the BEST offer going!) I've heard, that he feels I *might* not be able to make it work, I've heard I can't even keep up with all that I have going on as it is... uh? what the eff do I have going on??? I just went off my meds and if it doesn't work out is it going to send me into a depressive state all over again (ya uh, it's not THAT depressing I WILL have new stamps out of the deal!!) ;) and the lowest of lows... "you've never been able to make any of the other businesses work, why would this one be any different?" -which in my opinion is asking why is the sky blue -it just IS! and I will put just as much effort into this venue as I did with the others only thing I can do is hope it works this time. I am having some pretty sad thoughts about our relationship and it isn't anything to do with me taking on an adventure - it's HIM! I'm starting to feel like he just wants me to keep the house, manage the children and I should have pretty much NO time for ANYTHING else. It angers me and it is really not fair.
I have talked to him until I'm blue in the face -I have given him every reason that I can possibly think of that answers his questions and concerns... he claims "he's only thinking of me/us" I say BULL CRAP! I don't know what he is thinking but I have came right out and said, I just don't get it? I don't get why I can try it out and strive to make my money back and if that's all I ever make oh well... but I can't sell if I can't join.
I just don't get it...

serves me right

I slept in today, and then slept a couple hours this afternoon so yes now it's 1:30am and I'm still up and scrapbooking {thanks Shannon} :D

updated the layout: not sure if you can see the journalling, it reads:

I love that you are so..... genuine, caring and loving.
Dawson you have the biggest loving heart.

Tea Party
June 27, 2006

excuse me while I'm ill

I went to the walk in clinic last night -dh dropped me off at 5:45pm then drove out to deliver the kiddo's to my mil and collect his aunt. When he returned I had yet to be seen by a dr. He came back after dropping his aunt P off at aunt W's house and I was finally done. -good timing- Just as I had suspected I have pnuemonia AND bronchitis! bleh... I went for chest xrays today I think that is just to 'clarify' that I do indeed have a problem. {not to mention more reason to charge the gov't money to suck the last penny out of tax payers} -yes I live in Ontario.

sigh, so this afternoon I have spent the day loafing around, coughing my brains out, & sleeping.

I wonder if there's anything 'good' on tv tonight? I am such a NON-tv watcher.

Maybe I'll muster up the energy to scrapbook a layout?

I've had MORE than enough!

I am sick :(

i don't know what the heck is going on but I am not well.

I haven't been diagnosed yet but I'm about 99% it's pneumonia {however you spell it!}

tv shows -he sure can pick'em!

MY GOODNESS! my dh can find the most DISGUSTING, STUPID and makes NO sense programs on tv. Ever hear or see something called, Breaking Bad? it is absolutely pukey! It gives me the shivers and gaggy feeling. I'll watch TPB ANYDAY over this junk! GAG!

I'm just going to go and make some cookies -- it is late, but well... I already pretty well wore myself out today, might as well end the day off right!

"what I did today" :by Jen Hoover

• picked up and sorted the laundry off our bedroom floor and then also did the kids room
• started the laundry
• shovelled the sidewalk, front step and a 'pathway' from the house to the sidewalk
• did more laundry
• made a KRAFTY lunch
• washed the kitchen floor
• washed walls
• more laundry
• vacuumed the livingroom tidied up the diningroom and swept the floor
• made roast beef, mashed potato's, gravy and corn -YUM! :D
• cleaned up after supper
• got ally bathed
• went out and got groceries
• put the kids to bed

-the end. Well, not really, now I'm going to bake cookies :D

I am SO looking forward to the weekend -the kids are going away... ahhhhhhh.....

ya so I'm ok :)

I guess I was just being WAY too stubborn last night to listen ~ even tho' I still say that he was WAY out of line to just say "no!"

I'm going to give myself until Feb 29th to find 10 people that are willing to commit to a monthly purchase. I have tons of idea's and am FULL of excitement about this. however...

a bit of backgroung and where Steve is coming from:
-a while back I joined cock-a-doodle designs now known as TLC, when I joined I felt left in the dark over a LOAD of stuff and did NOT find myself enjoying the products and therefore found it more and more difficult to promote
-not long after Ally was born I joined CTMH and jumped in and was EXTREMELY pumped about it and knew that *I* could make it work. Well, I had I believe one phone call from my 'random generator' upline person and absolutely nobody in my VERY rural area was remotely interested in scrapbooking/stamping ~nothing! I ended up just giving up bothering to try any more.
-Still looking for a way to get other people interested in learning how to get started with scrapbooking and card making, I actually stumbled upon A.C Bailey Designs and it was and is a good company to find supplies -worked out especially good for me living in a VERY rural area, to get stuff shipped direct too!

Once we moved to the city I now find that I am more happy with INSTANT gratification and just go to my LSS when I need/want something...

HOWEVER! I still find this urge to want to show/teach others about the fun techniques and other details of scrapbooking and card making etc. Stampin' UP has an AWESOME hostess plan and seems to really have things all together for helping demonstrators.

ANYWAY - this is where I'm at with my decision. Live near me? interested in joining a stampers club? or hostessing a night out to play with ink? Please email me and let me know!!

...the rest of the story.

Well, I'm mad! that pretty much sums it up.

I'm mad that I have busted my butt trying to stay focused and keep on top of a lot of stuff going on.

you know, I just don't even want to blog about it :sigh: ~no worries, overall I'm fine but I hate it, and I mean I HATE IT when Steve treats me like an imbecile! I wanted to bring up the idea of joining Stampin' Up! but I wanted it to be a discussion not just me saying- "I want to talk to you about something..." and then having him say "NO! I don't think it's a good idea -since it's never worked for you before." and that was pretty much the end of the discussion. He makes me feel like I'm 5 and it really pisses me off!

have more to say... but for now -

I should have blogged earlier! I am pooped out from being at the computer for HOURS now... anyway, I'll have to post more later -but until then here are a couple more cards :) the first is a close up of the wing of the first card -I used flocking on it to make it "look" feathery.

think i can? NO! I KNOW I CAN!

well, today I have improved by LEAPS and bounds -

Viewing the computer monitor still makes me feel loopy, so I'll just keep that to a minimum for now. It's weird as I'm fine if I concentrate at one area but as soon as I move my head away to look at something else, or even to the next line -WOAH, who moved the room! ;)

so let's get back to some FUN stuff!!! :D

I taught a card class to a few ladies from our church and they had never even laid a hand on a stamp before!! can you believe that? I was astounded... I also think 2 of the 3 of them would LOVE to get more of their own stuff -which leaves me to think about whether it would be worth my while to join Stampin Up! it really baffles me that here in Canada (during sellabration) I can join for $209 (CAD) but in the USA I could join for $159 (USD) with our soaring dollar I just can't fathom that there is THAT much difference in price! -not to mention the stuff IN the catalog ... very crummy.

I've made a couple cards lately the designs that I 'whipped up' for the ladies was extremely simple. Thought I'd not scare them off on their first card making adventure ;) here are the cards we made: I was VERY pleased with the creativity of the others once they got a hang of it... they're cards varied from the sample.

getting there

miss me? -I have been taking MUCH needed time to just rest the past couple days and it has been paying off. I hope to be back at it soon as possible!

putting it altogether!

wondering what on earth is going with me, I decided to turn to google.ca to find out any possible information. Here's what I found:

• http://www.quitpaxil.info/index.htm
• http://www.join-the-fun.com/paxil-withdrawal.html
• http://depression.about.com/od/paroxetine/a/paxilwithdrawal.htm

and these are just a FEW of the sites... man I'm glad I'm getting off of this stuff -but WOAH what a ride and I do NOT like it!

a couple more creations

not up to much still feeling lousy...

but I did do 2 layouts today :) both of Dawson for a change...

did a duplicate of that

horse card too, but it's a

little different.

It's NOT the flu!!!

...and no I'm not pg... I have been decreasing my meds over the past couple months and I'm down to the last dose before being OFF of it! :D Dh & I think that THAT is what's causing me to feel so crappy. It's one of those meds that make you feel like you have the flu if you miss a dose. So I'm sure that is what the problem is. I have gone from 40 mg and now I'm down to 10mg's and I'm sure that is the reason. {whew}

I'm on my way out the door here shortly, it was one of my neice's birthday yesterday and we're having celebration today. She is 7!!! I still can't believe Dawson will be 6 next month!!! big deal that I'll be 32 but my son will be 6!!!! ~where did the time go?

He made dh and I, as well as his sister and himself breakfast this morning -cereal :) what a sweetie.

So happy superbowl day to all you fooseball fans ;)

oh man! :(

I am *NOT* feeling good yet :( I HATE, and I mean HATE! throwing up, and I'm seriously thinking of inducing myself! I thought it had passed and I felt fine when I got up this a.m until I ate a banana. Then it hit me. :(

I've been loafing ALL day - sigh... I really need to wash our bedding.

whew! feeling a little better

I'm sure glad *THAT* yucky feeling is passing.

here's some more cards :D -the bella card is paper pieced, the brown birdie card was a "lift"... and the other birdie card was just another card- that I'm not overly pleased with, but want to keep track of all that I'm working on :)

gRRRR...

It hit me. Like an icy wall. the flu bug ~bleh!

I started feeling lousy yesterday and just didn't feel the energy to do anything. then last night I went to bed around 11 (I had already napped on the couch from 5-7) so I went to bed and do you think I could get warm? so I got up around 2am after laying there shivering - bundled up in layers of clothing went downstairs to the couch (it seems warmest on our main floor) bundled up under 2 blankets and finally warmed up enough to sleep. BLEH! I HATE being sick, it really SUCKS! The thing that frustrates me is that I feel 'ok' then I feel like absolute CRAP all within minutes.

We also woke up to a snow fall, enough that cancelled school -and thankfully Steve's meeting was also cancelled due to weather and he took a "flex" day. So we're all cozied up in our house and I do reckeon that my card class is going to be postponed :(

anyway... tomorrow's Ground Hog day. I'm REALLy hoping to feel better b/c I REALLY want to take the kids tobogganing!!!